more than enough

From Amy:

We are in the "when" times of life.

Isaiah says," WHEN you pass through the waters, I will be with you....WHEN you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned.... "

yes, this is definitely the "WHEN". and if i am honest it hurts.

BUT, hurt is different than abandoned. OUR FAMILY IS NOT ABANDONED! WE HAVE A GRACIOUS GOD WHO COMFORTS US THROUGH OUR HURT.

Today is a new day. It is the first day I have been able to read Scripture without getting angry. It is the first day I have been able to say we are not abandoned. Yes, it hurts, in a way I have never known, but we are not burned.

Ansley went to the potty twice this morning! She also sat on the couch and colored. Right now, I am watching her sleep peacefully while she receives a blood transfusion.

Blood transfusion.

It shouldn't be this way. It wasn't intended to be this way. And yet, it is right now.

I am listening to Chris Tomlin's song, "More Than Enough." I want this to be the cry of my heart. Knowing and feeling aren't always the same. I am somewhere in the middle of those 2 things right now.

Sleep well my precious girl. I will be right here when you wake. Your mommy loves you.