learning that this is our story

Well, it is the end of the first 24 hours of chemo.

Ansley had a great day and a hard day.

It was the first time that she has gotten out of bed in 4 days. At home we often wished that she would sleep later and now we badly want her to have the energy to get up and walk. At home she would change her clothes 20 times a day and we were upset, today she wanted to put on "her clothes, not that hospital gown" and we were thrilled!

The ups and downs are rapid - glad to see her interactive, talkative, and eating - then hurting that you are excited for her to just put on clothes... or to have us dress her. Sweaters are NOT supposed to have to go over port-a-caths for chemo. That is not how this world was created, and it is not how it will be when all is restored and redeemed (Col 1:15-21).

But for now - and for a long time to come - Amy and I have been learning that this is our story. This is the one that God has given to us. And quite honestly, we are thankful for it. It hurts very deeply, but we trust His great mercies, which are new every morning. Please keep praying for our little one and us. Thanks to everyone helping with our precious children. And, if you have children - let them climb in bed with you in the middle of the night, let them flourish as little ones changing their clothes 10 times a day (for girls) or not changing their underwear for several days (for boys!), hug them more than you have - and get out in the yard or on the floor and play with them. Be like Jesus and take them in your lap and just revel in their fun childishness - that is a daily wake-up call from our Lord! Again, thanks to all who are praying and serving us so well. We love you.