in the midst of it

If I am honest, it is a defeating day. It is so hard to discipline a child that has been through what Ansley has been through the last 5 weeks. She has had a rough day on the behavior side. Of course, she's been getting lots of attention and she's getting very used to it. But, how do you punish a 4-year old that has had her life turned upside down in the last month?? Boy, it's hard. Life is just hard right now. I got an e-mail that another family in our neighborhood has just lost their wife and mom to cancer. 4 kids, 1 husband, and cancer took her life. A precious family at our church has a daughter that is fighting this dreadful disease. It is hard to come to the realization that this is our story and it will be for a long time.

The scans looked good, but the truth is, cancer is still in our baby's little body. It is so defeating to think about all the "what ifs" but they don't ever leave my mind. Please pray that I would live in victory and not defeat. Pray for the family that lost their mom and wife. Pray that Thursday's chemo treatments go well and that Ansley does okay having her port accessed. Ansley asked Garrett to go with her and hold her hand through it. I started crying just at the thought of watching Garrett, age 5, be strong for his little sis while she has her chemo. What a precious sight in my mind! Still can't believe it is our story, but trying to trust God in the midst of it. Praying that He will make something beautiful out of it.
Much love to you all,
Amy