~~~standing together as Ansley battles non-hodgkins lymphoma~~~

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Sunday, March 4, 2012

Why Do I Fear??

Dear Friends,
It has been a while since I have posted. Life has seemed quite normal lately. Clinic visits are less frequent, nausea and headaches are a rare occurrence. Yesterday was the first time in over 14 months that I was able to put Ansley's hair in ponytails! It was a very sweet thing because she has been struggling with her hair looking boyish. When she looked in the mirror and saw her ponytails she couldn't stop smiling!

My heart has hit a bump though with scans being this Wednesday. I don't really know what it is. Is it Satan trying to steal my joy or God preparing me for bad news?? Nothing is normal about waiting to see if the cancer is back in her little body. I really feel gripped by fear. This will be the second set of scans since she ended chemotherapy. I have no reason to think the cancer is back-her labs look great, she has lots of energy, and a good appetite. But, I'm struggling. Struggling to trust that Ansley will never have to undergo what she did last year.

Please pray for the scans on Wed. They begin at 10:45. Pray that I would trust her Maker and not fear the outcome.
Blessings on you tonight, my friends.
Amy